I want to say something about marijuana since it’s the first drug I began using. Using it allowed me to justify using other drugs, and marijuana led me to relapse.
As it becomes legal and more prevalent marijuana is becoming one of the more harmful drugs in society today because people are busy labeling it as not being harmful. Anyone who has spent as much time using it as I have (and there are a lot of us) knows this is not true.
Smoking marijuana turns the experience of living into a dull, fuzzy state of stupidity. People who smoke pot claim it’s harmless because it’s natural, but then again so is heroin, cocaine and cyanide. Polar Bears are natural. It doesn’t mean I try to make friends with them.
The insidiousness of pot is that unlike drugs like meth, Oxycodone and crack, addiction to marijuana results in a long, slow bleed of a person’s enthusiasm for life. It makes one okay with being bored, not doing constructive things, not reading, learning or being engaged in life, just sitting there doing nothing. Day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year people smoke pot and tune out. What’s really unfortunate is that social agreement makes this “okay.”
Someone dear to me started smoking pot at a very early age. After decades of smoking pot pretty much every day, he took about a year and a half off. During that time, he was a different person. He went back to school. He excelled and got top grades. He began coming up with new and innovative ways to improve his business. He became kinder to those around him. I know because I am one of them. He went out of his way to improve our relationship. He was interested in life again. Then, his enthusiasm for school slowly faded away. His “old,” semi-bitter, semi-depressed self replaced that vigorous person who had briefly made an appearance, and I found out later that he had begun smoking pot again.
More severe street drugs such as cocaine and heroin could actually be considered kinder than pot in the sense that they bring about a necessity for change much sooner. Marijuana does not appear to cause as much damage as other drugs since people don’t usually get into bar fights when they’re stoned, and we don’t keep statistics of automobile accidents caused by people smoking marijuana since peace officers only test for blood alcohol levels. Pot may not kill the body with such voracity as other drugs do, or destroy a person’s relationships as quickly, but it kills the vigor of the person. His life force is muted while he’s stoned. That, I think is a sad state to be in, and merits recovery just as much as any drug that steals life away and the chance for true happiness away from someone you care about.